Abc , im pissed .
Tuesday, 8 June 2010
WhatTheHell .
Fml can .
Why cant you just give me my privacy ?
Why why why .
I dont even have my personal space .
You always like to make a mountain out of a molehill .
Have you ever thought why I didnt talk to you about my personal problems ?
Because I know you well enough that your reaction will be damn big .
Always acting friendly behind others .
You always never encourage me .
Instead , you put me down every single time .
Every time , you discourage me with your words .
You didnt bother to encourage me .
You always think what is good for you , not me .
You only think about yourself .
Since when did you really think for me ?
Cant you just be like dad ?
Who encourages me and all .
Rather than nosing around in the wrong stuffs .
I really need my personal space just like how you need yours .
I dont pry into your things okay , its basic respect .
You always say I dont respect you , yet did you respect me ?
Shouldnt you be the one reflecting upon yourself ?
I tried my best , yet you should encourage me to do better .
Not scolding me and force me to do better .
I really detest it , coz you are putting me down , not encouraging .
When I told you I had an important role in my cca , what did you say ?
All you say was , you this type of people can become _ , etcetc .
All those stuffs to put me down .
Did you ever ever say encouraging things to me ?
I doubt so .
Whenever I improved , you always say its never good enough .
Gosh , everytime you ask me something , I always tell the truth , yet you dont trust me .
Might as well you dont ask and stick to your own pressumtion .
You ask , I say the truth , and you dont believe .
Might as well dont ask .
Argh .
I controlled for very long , just that I didnt flare up .
Everytime at night , i would always reflect .
Yet , I tried to change to that person you want me to be .
It really isnt me you are seeing .
You are seeing me from what you want me to be .
It isnt my true self .
Sometimes , I feel like running off from my life .
Why are you stressing me out ?
Result slips came in .
You will be like what you got , who get what and all .
Always comparing .
I really dislike this .
I am so stressed up .
Why must you force me to one space whereby i dun have my own breathing space .
Im also a human being .
Everytime , i dreaded going _ , its because I know I will always get scolded .
Going to school has always been a joy to me .
But now , you ruined my perfect world of joy .
Its a joy because i get to learn and interact with friends .
You control the friends i make too .
Why dont I control yours and see how you like it ?
But no matter what , I will always be with my friends whether you like it or not .
I dont care .
Im not rebellious or what .
But im just not your puppet or your dog .
You should have your own limit of control .
I have my limitations for my patience and all too .
One day , I might just flare up .
At that time , you would live to regret it .
Honestly , im doing my best already .
Its just that you cant see it .
And fyi , I aint your punching bag .
Get this fact frigging straight .
Damn it , -'- .
Arghh .
Sorry readers , I aint in the mood to post .
Im just venting out my anger .
Shall reply tags next time , super sorry .
Ciao .
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